i been a few weeks, maybe 2, but i have been trying to internilize that none kf this is really real, and that i atleast need to get away,

i need to stop thinking that i deserve what women have or that having it would make me feel better, i need to stop comparing myself to women, i need to accept that as a trans woman, i am not actually a woman

it is a trick i play,

i need it to stop hurting, when i look at art of women, it still crushes me, it still makes me feel my meaningless body, it want that to stop, i need to accept that actual physical beauty just isnt for me

  • Dreamcaster
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    3 days ago

    but on a real note i do feel you on this. idk like as much as trans spaces push on me that im a real woman!! a biological woman!!! bcz hrt changes my hormonal profile and surgeries create a vagina etc blah blah blah. i’ll always be a male, i will never not be a male. i’ll be a trans woman no matter what i do. changing my bones and flesh with surgical intervention does nothing to actually change that. i may appear to be a woman but im really not.

    the best thing in my head that i can come up with to cope is that as long as i pass as a woman and have feminine energy i can at the very least be SEEN as a woman even though i am not one and i think thats enough for me to not rope.