my friends basically all unanimously agree that it’s abusive to go into a relationship with someone if you look up to them (or more specifically , feel inferior to them). but like , i’m objectively inferior to basically anyone who i fall in love with. the only way i could change this is with ffs, bc then atp i could probably then start actually going outside and socializing and stuff. however i don’t think im ever gonna be able to afford ffs. there’s just nothing i can do

ive also been worrying because , i feel inferior to all of my friends too. isn’t that also abusive???

i want to just lock myself away in a room and starve to death