Today is my injection day. I feel that I’m just not ready enough to be a tranny. Idk, recently I’ve also been feeling really anxious. Can this be from low/high estrogen levels? Or am I just scared of the social consequences. I don’t think I’ve experienced reverse dysphoria in any way. More so the societal consequences have been getting into me. What if I grow breasts and my family notices? What if the people around me do? Is boymoding really possible? I’m having doubts that I’ll be able to go unnoticed for a year. My family, the way they speak about me, even though I look like a faggot they still sincerely believe that I’m completely a guy. I don’t want to do this to myself. I don’t want to lose my social privileges. I don’t want to lose my ability to experience malebrained games and culture just to avoid being malebrained. I don’t even have any female friends. Only two guys. What the hell do I even know about femininity? How do I even know what it actually means to be a woman? How am I even going to make a career? How am I going to get a good job and a stable future? Will I really be able to become a surgeon as a tranny?

  • Shawicidal
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    11 days ago

    dont rep you’ll regret it, you will hate yourself so much for every day you spent like that masculinizing from testosterone. and you say “what do i know about femininity?” but it comes more naturally than you think like i was pretty fucking malebrained and didnt know sht about being a woman but it literally just happens… also you don’t have to lose the ability to experience malebrained games/culture. for a time i forced myself to be overly fembrained and have only fembrained interests cause i was v insecure about my femininity, but i eventually embraced the fact that i actually have some malebrained interests and can act like a dude sometimes and thats ok. it’s not like cis tomboys dont exist and it doesnt make you any less of a woman

    • FuwareiOP
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      11 days ago

      I’ll be taking my shot. I don’t want to miss out on my life. I’ve never ever really taken a risk this big. But I hope that the stars align. And I’ll have to fix my low self value too. Dysohoria is not the only issue I’m suffering from.

      • Shawicidal
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        11 days ago

        understandable. i hope you can increase your self-esteem as time goes on and you get further into transition. i’m glad you made the right choice :)