I really need to delete reddit… I scroll troonselfies to remember how much of a hon I am, I scroll r/askagp to remind myself I’m faketrans, and I scroll TransRepressors to remember the futility of being trans… Cant be healthy

  • polishsneed
    3·
    15 days ago

    I understand. I do see it a very similar way. I’m obsessive over reducing my shoulders visually, my body and facial hair, my penis because I csnt afford srs. I try to accentuate my breasts, my somewhat OK face as well. I wont be at ease jf I pass while knowing I didn’t remove my face hair effectively. And don’t worry about uh, being read male. Today I was called male by so many people when being in honmode that at this point I have no clue how cis people see any gender ngl

    • ✿hannah✿OP
      3·
      15 days ago

      How long hrt and how often do you pass? I feel like I want to girlmode but I’ll really be honmoding because my face is pretty bad and then looking at TransRepressors and 4t4 made me demotivated because they said honmoding is worse than death. But my face isn’t going to magically pass without ffs so all girlmoding will be honmoding until then…

      • polishsneed
        3·
        15 days ago

        Today marks my 8th month. I can pass if I effortmaxx on a good day. Usually my voice clocks me.

        • ✿hannah✿OP
          3·
          15 days ago

          Thank you. Okay I think for the time being I’ll still hrtrep and start working on my voice. I think when 8 months comes around I’ll try to judge if my face changed enough or if I’m doomed and girlmode depending on that