day 4 or 5 no shower haven’t brushed my teeth today haven’t brushed my hair in weeks haven’t touched anywhere on my body with a razor in months no friends no money no income no weed no motivation no drive $216 in debt on cashapp 16.4 bmi so you know that jawline is snatched af face chiseled slept like 12 hours over 3 nights in the past 6 days my mouth tastes weird it hurts to swallow there’s always mucus in the back of my throat i feel really confused and disoriented i keep zoning out while glancing around at things with my eyes rlly wide in public i feel like i have to look like a tweaker plus i probably look sickly and ghoulish from this abhorrent craig like state ive been living in these past 2 months, ive been rlly bad about taking my e the past month and t is prob dominant i’m so sad about it i know i’m wasting time and turning more into a deformed freak but every time i have to take it i just don’t fucking want to im like a little stinky boy i dont ever wanna shower or brush my teeth or even use deodorant like i dont know if i used deodorant today or yesterday or if i slept last night or if i ate yesterday i definitely haven’t used perfume in weeks i just smell like the stinky cheap shitty weed that i spend the little bit of money i do get on everywhere i go and i’m wearing an outfit that i put on 2 or 3 days ago that’s kinda giving boymoder or like twink cloud rap producer on soundcloud who is mentally abusive and has rich parents BUT i got called gorgeous by a beautiful amazing girl at chipotle while i was doordashing to pay back the $18 i had overdue oncashapp and to buy a mcchicken and a caramel frappe from mcdonald’s and omg guys she just made my day wonderful