Like there’s a specific horror to getting your first tranny thought. I remember when it happened to me when I was 13 or 14, it was fucking horrible, it was like a sickening feeling in my gut. And after that happened I went from a lonely but doing ok kid to “the haze” which I can’t even remember
“Egg” by itself too, there’s repper but the way I see it they’re different but related, an egg is blissfully ignorant, a repper is actively repressing
i mean repression in psychology is the defense mechanism that makes you unaware of something bc of how traumatising it would be to enter your consciousness iirc. it’s just that we use repper now to describe ppl who are aware of it but try to ignore it which i believe should actually be called suppression but ig supper sounds stupid lol
dont quote me on this though i just remember reading a discussion abt this in a repper server i was in haha