The problem is that when you’re repping, it doesn’t feel like anything is yours. Hearing someone say “I love you” while they stare at a face that doesn’t feel like your own, it’s wrong, it’s not you, it can feel kind of good though, because of the eye contact. But there’s something bad in it too, and it grows.
tbf I still feel that way even after 2 years of E
That’s because you have a negative self image. You looked good in your fit and you have multiple good voices that you can do, but you still talk so badly about yourself. I know that this struggle is so difficult, but you will make progress. It will be different later.
you haven’t seen my face I presume
No I’m not in any of the selfie subs, but I’ve seen lots of situations like this and I never see any real reason for the doom
me neither… I’m not on the selfie subs cause reddit banned me forever and still bans every account of mine if I’m not too careful with ips. ouch
But this is my face… I am not happy with it… but I have to own it… have to say that this is my face and recognize it when I look in the mirror… even if I feel like it is all wrong :(
But it’s not the life you want. It will always feel like love that’s meant for someone else, it never fully penetrates into your soul, and you feel it grow more distance every time it’s uttered.
Better to at least have some love as a repper than no love as a hon
I already lost everything in life so I have nothing to lose 😒
But you will also lose any potential future… if being a troon makes it impossible to ever find a boyfriend or a girlfriend or have a spouse or a respecatble job or good life then maybe trooning is a bad idea and I will just end up an ugyl troon…
I didn’t had a bf or gf as a moid… I’m a failed male I wasn’t suppose to be a man…
Well but you will be an even more failed women because you wont even reach into the category of woman and then you will also never have a bf or gf… that’s kinda my thought process here… not like I am gonna succeed in womanhood as a failed mentally ill ugly tranny
it’s preferable to repping
Really though… all the social scorn, the dysphoria, the comparison, never passing, infertility, just looking like an orgehon, being treated as subhuman…
the dysphoria
Still exists even if you don’t troon out
the comparison
Still gonna happen if you don’t troon out
never passing
You’re not gonna pass if you don’t troon out either
infertility
You can freeze sperm if you’re reaaally worried about this…
all the social scorn looking like an orgehon being treated as subhuman
Can’t really say much about these since I haven’t outed myself either (I’m just hrtrepping atm), but trying to rep is not going to work if you have genuine dysphoria.
I don’t know if I’ll pass either, but I know one for sure: starting HRT has been the best thing I’ve ever done. It’s only been 3 months but I’ve never felt more ‘alive’ in my life than in these 3 months. My biggest regret is not starting HRT earlier. I could have started at 20, instead I wasted 8.5 years of my life. It left me as an empty husk.
Please don’t do the same mistake I did
