TOTAL SISSY DEATH
same i genuinely think that makes it impossible to be a young/earlymid-shit without knowing trans people irl, unless youre crazy dysphoric and self aware at a very young age. might just be cope though because of how much i think about how meeting a trans person (who was a friend of a friend for the longest time) earlier couldve impacted my life </3
If I had known that a guy I knew in late middle school was trans… I would have changed my views on trans people and stopped dehumanizing them probably two years ealier than I did… at least I really hope that… he really was the person who made me see “wait, you guys are normal… like normal human beings… you arent ugly carricature monsters?”
last part is so real… although im pretty sure i subconsciously avoided anything trans related. maybe i was scared… it took me so long to accept it. still think the worst mind poison was when i started being ‘woke’. i thought about the whole thing as just identifying. trans women are just male and identify as girls and thats valid! still probably subconsciously saw them as ugly men in dresses or the weird people on discord. and i didnt want to be like that obviously. thats also when i started coping by thinking that im just gender non conforming and thats valid etc. my dysphoria was constantly getting worse though even if at the time i didnt know it was dysphoria kinda leading to a massive breakdown which i vented to that trans friend i already knew at that time… i think sharing it with another person for the first time also made it suddenly become real to me and thats when i fully realised it
Yeah I relate to that <3
tbf, its not any different on the board really
The board is a lot worse in my opinion… why cant we have a little dignity for ourselves instead of using these gigamalebrained depictions of women for ourselves… like yes we are ugly and all gigaorgehons and should all just 41%… but at least lets not be cringe
nah thats real. it feels like everywhere i go its the same pornbrained expectations and depictions of women and it sucks
Why are we like this… did socialisation really fuck us over mentally this bad… why dont we adress this issue a lot more honestly… why dont we talk about this… why dont we make this a criteria to be truetrans or whatever or just to be considered a worthwhile member of the community… to not be pornbrained like that and to actually sit down and contend with the reality of womanhood… when I read about feminism or female oppression (and no feminity is not just about oppression, that is such a negative view) but I genuinely feel so horrible because I guess Terfism has infected my brain too much because I wish that I would understand it on an experential level… that I would share in that… that I can be considered a woman too, that I am allowed to belong to this histroy… I want nothing more than to do that… to be a sister in womanhood but I look at myself… at the fact that I dont have a uterus… that I am an ugly troon… that I am so deformed and violated by male puberty and socialisation and I just feel like it makes me want to die to be honest… it makes me feel just… like IWNBAW…
